What chapter of my life am I already?

Blog,

it's been a long time buddy. So many things had changed. I made it through the college life but I chose to study again. Here I am now, studying again. Now,  It's very different. I do not have any friends, do not have someone to talk to. Law school, my perception about it is that, it is simply not a place for a young boy like me, yet, I enrolled to study and not to play. Last weeks, I've been doubling my time in order to catch up, but now, I guess I should make it triple. When your background isn't about law, it'll be very hard for you. Whenever I'm inside the classroom,  I feel like a child who doesn't know anything and I do not know how long I will stay that way. Buddy, I'm so down. Feels like no matter how determined I am, it's still hard to catch up. There is so much pressure on me. Specially whenever I think of the fact that it's my mother who's sending me to school, paying my bills, giving me allowances, my heart's breaking. Buddy, she supposed  to be allocating her money for her regular check but instead, she's giving it to me. And I think I am not doing good. I really need a job. 

Thank you buddy for just being at my side, just waiting on my log ins. I totally do not have someone to talk to that's why I'm talking to you now buddy. Jonahtot is also a bit busy coz she  lucky got to send herself to school. Tonight, again I gave my bad attitude at her. Hay... I hate myself for being so weak. If I'm strong enough, I do not have to have this heat on my head. If only I can do well in school, I should be going home, driving slowly, singing, enjoying the road. Hay... So hard if you are getting older. It really is buddy.