Please...

My future doesn't belong to me. No matter how hard i try to convince myself that all is fine and i am fine, reality could never lie. No matter how many smile i put on my face it couldn't do any good. They always say that i can, bullshit idea. I am not as strong as they think i am. They are always giving me obligations and always saying i could do it, but what it appeals to me is that i must to those things for them and forgets my personal feeling. I do not know where i am going, this was not my dream. I really thought that i have the plan, but it seems like i lost it when my life's chapter changes. What i want for now is to live with my own understanding about everything. I wanna live my life as how i wanted it, i wanna walk my life as how i planned it. I wanna be with my own. Nahihirapan na ako!!! Sana ay maintindihan nila ako someday, before anything could happen... Hirap na ako!!!

One week to go, and the fight is on. But we are still trying to fix those things. I'm so afraid for we might not make it. But still faithful to go through this. I accepted this obligation, i must stand with this, no matter what. Just like keeping a promise. Maybe from the first place, i know we can that's why i get it. Time is always my enemy but always in perfect timing...

Coconut husk on the wheel...

We drove down the road under the thick black clouds with those drops from above starting to fall... Speeding smoothly on top of infinite number of grains of sand, moving as if the wings of love is guiding us. Stopped at the end beside grasses and trees, from their, we see li'l waves kept on dancing along the soft blow of the wind. Drops of water falling down, lasts for quiet long. Under the same umbrella, our only shield from rain, we talked about topics we don't care to repeat again and again until the end of time. Boats passes by our sight, in front of our very eyes. Some look at us, some don't but we still don't care about them. Don't even care being wet. With each other we found comfort, shield, caress and calmness that time. Holding her hand while she holds mine, can say to the world that we are strong enough to whatever odds may come our way. A walk at the shore, we build our own secluded world that no one except us could be part of it.

What a sweet stolen moment worth to be treasured for the rest of our lives, worth to be remembered ever passing of the day. An answered prayer, a part of my dream came true.

^_^

It's unplanned, unexpected... Again, those happy moments were mostly when you don't expect it to happen. Today we had a ride together for a second time, up hill... we took the longest route trying to be with each other longer, cheating the time. Making me wish to have an endless road toward us. An endless driving, an endless time together. We don't care about the dust, even if it covers our face, we don't care about the bumps, we'll just laugh at it, don't even care about the turns, we'll just be surprised about it. Don't care about anything, as long as we were together. We even got a chance to have a glance at the stage, the very special stage i've ever known. There, i heard the sweetest words a guy could ever and want to hear. As time chase us, we ran so slow, but fast enough to make memories out of that stolen time. Two times round the oval with a smile on our face, i wanna hold her but did not get a chance. Maybe next time i will.