Sunday, July 3, 2011

Just copied 'coz I like it!

The entry below is a note that I read from one of my friends FB account and I really like it for it says what I, as a boy really feels and experience. It answer the questions:

"We boys don’t get butterflies, we get fireworks. We don’t have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Often, yes we wait for you to go online, sometimes simply even just being online makes our heart skip a beat, even if we don’t talk. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we’d spend all our time with you if possible. We don’t think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there’s more.

We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when she’s asleep. And the way she says our name that our hearts just explode with mirth, a simple act that no-one else can replicate.

A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will be a martyr, giving his all and asking for almost none. He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways.

A man in love is no simple thing."




HuHu...

Aduy...
Maybe sometimes she doesn't know when I am serious and when I am not. I was just kidding a while ago. (Not really) Hehe... Tah, seemed like I made her so annoyed with what I said. Lagi na lang ba? Tah... She turned off her phone. I am trying to reach her for about 2 hours already and yet her phone still says "Unattended". I am sorry Pag Ibig ko... Just really trying to draw you to talk about it eh, hoping that you'll give me an assurance that I always wanna her! Kasi hearing any assurance that you say gives me so much happiness even if I already and always hear it to you. So sorry talaga. Tah, di ako makakatulog nyan! : ( Goodnight na lang.
HmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMmmmM

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Thoughts; unsorted!!!

The fan has flown away, leaves nothing but memory. : ) In vague thoughts, I found freedom. It has nothing to do with what others have to say, as long as my manners are obscure, I have nothing to worry!

In this world, sometimes you don't have to make noise so that others would notice you, sometimes, the most noticeable are those who hide. Yet, if someone would act just like he didn't know how to talk, it leaves twin-edged thought that no one could comprehend where the truth lies among the two!

Here, talking obscurely makes my heart smile, keeps my mind awake, my hands energized. Thoughts, unsorted, unclassified, keep pouring down my mind. Writing freely is one of the things I always wanna do. I don't have to worry 'bout the story format which our creative-writing teacher keeps on reminding us. I do not need any outline to follow, just me, my thoughts, the keyboard, and I!


Some could never understand me, some would try but wouldn't succeed, some would act as if they understood me but it would, for sure appear so obvious in my eyes! All truth are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them! Like what I believe, he who that doesn't understand my silence will probably do not understand my words... : )

How long?

How long will I be haunted with this feeling? I'm tired, wanna go on, wanna leave those things for good, yet all of those were easier said than done! How I wish I didn't read it.

Do not think that I am always entertaining this negative feeling, as if I am letting it grow. I wanna go on with life as much as you do, and probably more than you do. Yet, those things I've read were like carcinogens, so hard to kill. I never wanted this feeling, for every time I am feeling this, so many thoughts coming into my mind. San ako nagkamali, san ako nagkulang? Maybe one thing I need to understand is that, where did I go wrong? Upon knowing it, I will have myself mended.

I am not giving a blame to her or to anyone, all the blame must be mine. My love for her, my trust, my faithfulness, my promises, those will never change!

here, in my lonely room, sound of sadness is echoing, torturing me. I wanna break free before I will be a prison of this feeling. Need some help here, badly need some help!

I just hope tomorrow, when I wake up, all is postive!!! :_(