It’s been quiet a while since I last posted an entry in this blog, several weeks I guess. Thoughts were so many and they were all stacked inside my mind waiting to be expressed, yet because of my mind limited capability, now I am finding it hard to recall. Ideas were flashing yet undistinguishable, so many points that will support my ideas yet, upon tracking where it would you, I lost the way just before it reaches the end.
But there is a thing a really want to right here. I got chances to have quality time with my one and only Jonahtot, chances that could not be at all times possible, could not be at all time impossible. We, for now left the world we once knew and temporarily found haven in the ruins. There good in there but we both really miss our world. I thank her so much for even she has a job, she’s able to steal some time to share with me. At ako naman, always at peace whenever she is beside me, whenever she’s with me coz I could asure she’s fine, ‘di napapagod, walang nagdadabog, and make her smile any time I want to.
Last night, I asked her what course she wants to take and I was surprise that she is considering XRM, I was in a shock and ask myself, is she really talking about a course or a type of motorcycle. : D Just kidding. Actually what she mentioned was HRM, yet, accountancy was what she really wanted. I know what ever course she would take, she can do it. The same night I asked what if I’l work outside the country, would everything still be the same? I asked it coz nights before that night, I was so bothered by thoughts what could happen after graduation? I always considering working outside the country where the salary would be enough to make my dreams, aims come true even though it also means sacrificing. Sacrificing to be far from home, family, life I have been used to, friends, back to zero socialization, and most especially, missing her (Jonahtot), yet I truly love her so I really need to sacrifice for our future. There no other girl I wanted to share my life with ‘til the end of time except Jonahtot so it is just right to have good direction, planning kasi ayaw kong mahirapan sya.
Anyway, just happened to remember. I was really sad about Jonahtot’s daily routine. Her brother left and all of the house chores were on her hands now. Very tiring for sure, sabayan pa ng pagiging inconsiderate, selfish, numb, lazy ng mga tao sa palagid nye, it was kind of annoying yet I can do nothing and I hate myself for it. But I know God’s plan is perfect and I trust it. Ayaw ko lang talaga na nahihirapan si Jonahtot ko coz she really doesn’t deserve it. At least now she is telling me na about those things and I really appreciate it. Someday, everything will be okay!!!
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